Catching up with friends can be so insanely fun but when they hit you with this question. I am like “Why not?”
To be honest, I kinda wish to have a partner to spend my whole entire life and emotions with. Who doesn’t want to? But how can you if can’t find the right one yet? It takes time, it may feel like it takes forever. There’s nothing wrong with that. I am still young. But people still doesn’t understand.
I don’t like the idea of relying someone for your own happiness. This is what i exactly did during my “high school” years. After years, things ended. What am i left with? Months and even years of “recovering”, low confidence, lost in life.
What’s worst? Looking at your friends being happily attached and when you guys meet up, they choose to bring their partners together when you are still clearly depress. When you tell them personally how you feel about that, they can be like “Alright i understand how you feel” etc.but when it comes to the next meet up, they give you 101 excuses of bringing their partners. What can i do? Just suck it up.
I know i may sound selfish but thinking that they are your best friends. I don’t know what to feel about that but thankfully, i am able to meet this 2 awesome friends in college. The 2 who make me feel that it doesn’t matter that you don’t have a partner, you have us.
I don’t know what will change again after years. But i am thankful on what i have now.